Busting Writer’s Block with Thankfulness


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I’m thankful for self control–it was hard not spending my money for the past five or six months since January but the delayed gratification was very worth it! When my birthday came and I was able to go on shopping sprees without emptying my bank account–that was satisfying! It definitely made the whole occasion more special! Self control pays off.

I’m thankful for temporary tattoos. I consider tattoos, especially real ones, to be such a fascinating art form. I myself have yet to host any serious thoughts on getting a real tattoo, so temporary tats are perfect for the now. Especially ones that sparkle. 🙂

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I’m thankful for Netflix. I can keep my favorite shows close *hackingcough-Family Guy-The Office-Adventure Time-The Walking Dead-Warehouse 13-cough* and discover new ones too *cough-Parks and Recreation-anime-anime-anime-Princess Jellyfish-Fate/Zero-Ouran-anime-anime-anime-PARKS AND RECREATION-cough* (Also I discovered two of my most favorite movies ever on Netflix: Thelma and Louise and Clue.

I’m thankful for piano finger warm ups. They are fun and challenging without being overwhelming, so they’re an overall encouragement to my piano playing.

I’m thankful for the Internet. Not only is it full of interesting nooks, sources of income, and fun entertainment, but also can host things like blogs and Skype. One of my favorite things is getting to make new friends and keep in touch with old ones. I mean, the Internet has it’s downfalls, but I’m looking at the bright side here and this is a big bright side.

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I’m thankful for the rain storms. My part of town has had at least three good storms the past month, which is more than the past few years. I LOVE IT; I wish it rained more! It smells so good. The mood it sets is fantastic for writing or getting stuff done. It makes the air more invigorating, the ground more green, and life just more exciting–at least, here in the Tatooine desert!

I’m thankful for that crackling soda fizz that lingers in the throat after you drink too much at once. It’s sharp but I always go back for more because it’s just such a small but fun delightful part of day-to-day life. It makes the slow moments more special.

~Jamie

PS. Also snap bracelets!

Just Little Things


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Well, it’s a quiet Sunday today; I’m lying here on the couch responding to comments and watching Monsters Inc with my little brother Nathan and trying not to sweat like a pig. It is so so so hot, we have all the fans on full blast.

I finally got Song of Sienna memorized after what feels like a month of never ending practice on the piano. A teeny more practice and I should be able to play it with my eyes closed. The next song I’m going to start working on will be Field of Daisies, which is soooo pretty. I’ve also began giving Nathan beginner piano lessons the past few weeks. And Kayla wants to learn how to read music so I’ll probably start teaching her too. Hey, who knows, maybe I’ll be a piano teacher one day.

Since the scare of finding three cockroaches in my bathroom and with summer bringing the scorpions back, I suddenly disliked having my mattress on my bedroom floor, with all my blankets touching the ground. Anything could climb between the sheets or under my pillow. Y’know, I’m fine with hunting and killing scorpions, I have at least two years experience doing that. But I did not like the idea of being asleep and having creepy things climbing into my bed. So, mom got my a bed a frame that stands 13 inches off the ground! And we put it together ourselves. I’m feeling safe now… well, unless a scorpion is crossing the ceiling and falls off. We have seen at least six scorpions on our ceilings before. But anyway, I can now say I’m sleeping much better now!

This week I got a new swimsuit and all I need is a pair of shorts and I’ll start having water fights with Nathan in our front yard! It’ll be a great way to keep cool, especially without a pool this year.

I’m feeling a little cooler now then I did at the beginning of this post. I hope I stay cool for the rest of the day!And I hope the critters stay out of my room and stay outside where I can find them and kill them. 😀 I think I’ll go teach Kayla some piano now. 🙂

~Jamie

Currently


tumblr_mmftopaz5M1r38m8do1_500Currently liking: these currently posts I came up with, they are fun to write and simple and I hope they are fun to read.

Currently listening: to the Wreck-It Ralph soundtrack, specifically Sugar Rush’s theme. This song makes me happy and I really wish I could visit Sugar Rush myself, it was the cutest arcade game ever in existence

Currently eating: Terry’s Chocolate Orange (dark chocolate of course!) One of my favorite chocolates, it reminds me of Christmas and when I was a innocent and naive little girl. Nostalgia.

Currently sitting: at the dinning table for once instead of at my desk.

Currently learning on the piano: Marsden’s Lament from Warehouse 13 and playing around with the Harry Potter Theme and Fireside Dance from Oz: The Great and Powerful; not doing so well with those two.

Currently writing: an assortment of film reviews for my other blog and about to begin my “What I Learned From Merlin” post considering I just finished the final season on Sunday.

Currently tired: from lack of sleep, I’ve been trying to get up earlier but my sleep cycle has gotten knocked around so it’s hard to fall asleep before midnight now. *sigh*

Currently excited: about watching The Office tonight with Kayla!

Currently scaring myself with: scarier movies… and I don’t know why I end up watching them at night when I’m alone in my room right before I go to bed. The thing is I enjoy dark scarier movies and at least I’m not a vivid dreamer. 😀

Currently praying: that Kayla gets comfortable with her new schedule and that everything will go well when I see my dad tomorrow and that we will get a lot of rain this monsoon season. I really want some rain.

That reminds me.

Currently wishing: for rain.

~Jamie

Currently:


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Currently listening: to 2Cellos. If you like groups like Escalla then there is a large chance you will love 2Cellos. I’ve been listening to this song a lot recently.

Currently reading: well, about to start The Time Machine by HG Wells.

Currently drinking: Dr Pepper Cherry. Yum.

Currently missing: Kayla, who has been gone for about six weeks, The Office which I haven’t seen in several weeks, and I miss The Doctor.

Currently learning on the piano: Song for Sienna by Brian Crain and struggling to learn by ear the eleventh Doctor’s theme song, I am the Doctor, with the help of this video. It’s extremely hard, let me tell you.

Currently watching: Season 2 of Grimm and Season 5 of Merlin; also currently in love with both Nick Burkhardt and Merlin’s grin.

Currently tired: of always losing. Losing my stuff, losing energy, losing contact with friends, losing at go-fish against my six year old brother.

Currently writing: a bunch of blogposts. A bedroom picture post, a review of Warm Bodies, a post on my favorite characters, a post all on Dwight Schrute, a post on self-discovery and a goodbye post to my church friends who I will not be seeing for a long time…

Currently scaring myself with: the idea of cutting my hair short (think Claudia Donovan-style from Warehouse 13, only with curly hair)

Currently wishing: to go to another state fair. And to go to London. And to go to Washington state.

Currently excited: about finding SEASON TWO OF DOCTOR WHO FOR ONLY TWENTY BUCKS AT COSTCO LAST WEEK, DO YOU KNOW HOW CHEAP THAT IS AND HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS SEASON I CAN’T WAIT TO START WATCHING IT WITH KAYLA WHEN SHE GETS HOME. oh and for IRON MAN 3 WHICH IS ALMOST HERE I’M SO EXCITED TO SEE THAT MOVIE. oh, and for THOR 2 AND THE AMAZING TRAILER THAT JUST CAME OUT OH MY GOSH I LOVE MARVEL MOVIES.

Currently failing: at Camp NaNo. I thought I’d give it a try but it turned out I was just not recovered emotionally or mentally yet to try pushing myself at it this month. I’ve backed off and decided to give it another try in July. As long as emotional tornadoes stop dropping out of the sky on top of me, that is.

Currently stuck in my head: Made for You by One Republic. Blame the fan-tas-tic beat for that.

Currently praying: that things will calm down soon and that I won’t do such a bad job at painting my finger nails like I did last night and that I will be able to start getting up earlier again and that the next month will be a new, fresh chapter in life for me and my sister and my mom and little brother.

Really really praying for that last one.

~Jamie

Seven Things About Myself


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I know; I just did an award post a few days ago, but I have to do these as they come or I tend to forget! Anyway, these are great post-makers. 🙂 Moving on, I want to say a big, big thank you to Moonstonemaiden for awarding me with this, I feel very honored to be called ‘very inspiring’, that means the world to me!

Le rules are:

Display the award logo on your blog.
Link back to the person who nominated you.
State 7 things about yourself.
Nominate 15 bloggers for this award and link to them.
Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements

This post turned out excessively long, but it felt really good to be able to put most of these things into a paragraph and have it just out and on the table to deal with. Posts like these are the reasons why I like blogging, because this is where I am free to talk about what I’m struggling with.

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Seven things about myself:

I still can’t drive. My mom is pressuring me to start learning as soon as the stress goes down low enough to where I can study better. It will be much more useful if I do learn to drive; I’ll be able to do grocery shopping or take trips to the library on my own if I get my license. I just don’t have that great burning to learn right now… I suppose that’s the problem. In some ways, I’m a homebody. Sure, I love going out to friends’ houses or attending parties or just going to Costco with my mom, but I don’t have the wanderlust where my feet want to travel the world. Maybe Europe someday with my special someone, but outside of a few trip idea that I am keeping to myself and Mom, I don’t really want to climb in a car and drive anywhere. At least… not now. 🙂

I want to be more comfortable in my skin. I’m tired of looking in the mirror and frowning at myself. I’m tired of not feeling pretty. So, something I just started this week was getting my makeup and girly stuff off my shelf and dust the top off and use some of it! I’ve painted my nails with my favorite light lavender polish, I’ve started putting on some sweet smelling lotion and a tiny bit of my pink lipstick. I know that true beauty comes from being truly happy, but honestly, I’ve not been very happy recently with all the extreme levels of stress in my home. It’s shown with myself-respect in how I’ve let myself go a little. I’m dressing more sloppily, I’ve not put makeup on for weeks, not even for church. So I decided this week that from now on in this new year, I will be taking the time to pretty myself up, to dress a bit better, to get back to painting my nails regularly. I think this will help my self confidence more. I can look in the mirror and smile and say, “I not ugly!” And I’ll see self-respect smiling back. And I will feel better in my skin.

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I love accomplishing new piano songs on my own. I haven’t had a lesson since I was twelve and what I learned in that last lesson was really easy stuff compared to the stuff I’m trying to play now. I like to play haunting melodies and the themes from my favorite tv shows and movies. I’m trying to conquer the Avengers theme right now and it’s a little difficult. I can hardly read the bass notes or treble notes, much less the notes that fly off the scale. I sometimes have to pencil in the notes names onto the paper so I remember what they are; sometimes I can’t play songs because they’re so advanced for the skills that I have. But at the same time, each new song I’ve managed to nail and memorize, I get such a great sense on accomplishment from it. Because I memorized that six page song, I taught myself how to do that finger play, I learned how to read those hard notes. All by myself. When my fingers can play the song all by themselves while I shut my eyes and I still nail the song: that’s the best.

Speaking of which, I’m trying to decide which of these two songs I want to learn next; I’m mean, I’ll eventually learn both, but I don’t know which one to get first because I like them both pretty equally. I’d love to hear which you guys like better and you could help me decide which to learn first! This one is called Chimes and this one is called Field of Daisies, both by Brian Crain. The other two songs that I’ve learned by this amazing composer is Rain and Wind; you can listen to these two songs and pretend I’m playing them because, yeah, I nailed those two pretty good, if I do say so myself.

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Sherlock Holmes was pretty much my first official crush. Like, I had it bad for a long time when I was fourteen. We were, like, married and everything. But he came and he went, new things came along, I slowly forgot about him until last year: BOOM. He came leaping back out of my closet in book form, alive, covered in dust and shouting, “Remember me? I’m back in your face! Try to get rid of me now!” So, last time it was Basil Rathbone’s version that made me giggle, this round it’s Benedict Cumberbatch’s version . . . . . . . . . . between you and me, I plan on having twin boys; I will name them Basil and Benedict and they’ll grow up wearing deerstalker caps. Because, come on, it’d be a bit much to name your child Sherlock Holmes, right?

I have a hard time striking a balance between ‘reserved and quiet friend’ and ‘overly-clingy friend’. Because I’ve never had many friendships, I really value the ones that I do have, but I have this big fear that I may come across as really clingy and weird if I stick too close or talk too much with those friends and annoying them to death. I hate the idea of having people look at me and thinking, “Great, here she comes, it’s going to be ages before I can get her to be quiet again/get her to stop trailing me“.  To come off like that to the few friends I do have horrifies me, so I do the next worse possible thing and I stay too reserved. I just don’t know how to strike the perfect middle on this, especially because my first impulse is to be on the more clingy side of things. I’m a socially-oriented person, I like to both talk, and to just sit quietly in the middle of a group of friends and listen to them all talk. I need to be around people. But I’m so awkward when it comes to properly engaging with certain friends. This is something I’m going to work on this year… unless I happen to loose all those friends by moving to a new church again. This seems like a looming possibility that might happen in the near future and I’m stone cold terrified of having to start all over again but… let’s just not continue down this train of thought just yet, okay?

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I’m still going through the self-discovery process. Because during most of my teen years it was overly taught that one had to find their identification as a member in a family, my dad didn’t really allow me to try to think that I was and am, in fact, an individual person with my own personality, my own needs, my own likes and struggles. And while, yes, it is true, we are all part of a family and we should try to work together as a family, I wish the other half of the coin hadn’t been washed out of the picture then. I’m now trying to get that other half back. How can I expect other people to understand and know me when I don’t understand or know myself?

I’m thinking about writing a time traveling story. I don’t have much of a plot or character ideas or anything but I’ve had the end climax in my head for many years, so, I might actually try to write it out one of these days. It’s quite a scary idea and it’s only in the thinking process because I have so many other stories that I want to write first, but I think it would be fun to attempt a story like this. 🙂

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I’m going to nominate just a few people here who have been ‘very inspiring’ to me. 🙂

Grace: Grace is very inspiring in that she has learned to be comfortable as herself. She’s had many encouraging words for me over the past two years and she’s inspired me to embrace my inner fangirl without feeling weird about it. She also writes some great inspirational posts. 🙂

James: James is very inspiring when it comes to consistently commenting. He’s always has a kind word no matter where he comments and he does a great job giving back great feedback. He’s been inspiring to start commenting more, because comments really is one of the best things with blogging.

Alexandra: Alexandra is very inspiring in that she’s an accomplished self-published author! I’m inspired whenever I see her accomplishments to try to reach those accomplishments myself one day with my own writing; she also has given me so much encouragement to keep trying with my writing!

You three have been very inspiring to me in your own ways, so you really deserve this award from me to you! Thanks so much for being in my life!

And that wraps up this much-to-long post; thanks for reading, guys!

~Jamie