15 Memorable Things I’ve Learned Being 21


As my 22nd birthday approaches with the Sunday sunrise, I figured I should reflect on different experiences, thoughts, and lessons learned during my 21st year while I’m still 21.

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1 Potato chips aren’t necessary for life to go on. Tightening my budget means cutting out unnecessary crap, and that has included chips. *sobs* However, I’m learning that while the cravings are tough, life moves on.

2 I learned I have a passion for helping people help themselves. I go over this in depth in this post, but it was amazing to find my personal calling this past year! Knowing what I love to do is so freeing!

3 I can drive a car. I’m still learning, and sometimes it’s still a little scary. but it is possible.

4 Perspective is a curious thing. Everyone’s reality is a little different; its something I’ve pondered throughout the year or observed through interaction. How people see the world, how they see themselves, how they see me. To some people, I am little more than a name. To others, I am their entire world: that’s mind-blowing.

5 I can get an A in math if I WORK for it. Ugh I hate math, but I got an A for it last semester. My best friend was a gracious, incredibly patient tutor (I’m still so sorry I can’t do math in my head, James) and I studied A LOT. Hirasawa and Enya saved my sanity at times too while I did homework. And I got an A!

6 I learned my intelligence wasn’t solely based on my math skills. It turns out there’s a Theory of Multiple Intelligences, and I’m actually incredibly smart in interpersonal, musical, intrapersonal, and linguistic intelligence. Major confidence booster there, lemme tell ya.

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8 The strangest yet most beautiful souls ride the bus every day. I saw so many different individuals on my bus route. The I-think half intoxicated woman getting home who was so proud of her daughter’s academic accomplishments. The older woman who smelled of buttermints when she walked by. The girl wearing an anime shirt, and the teenager with the Star Wars hoodie. The transgender man, the two elementary aged children, the people lost and finding their way, the people who gave their seats to others. Even the ex-convict who I spent 30 minutes chatting with at my stop. Such an array of souls.

9 Facebook can be enjoyable when you take control of it. I for real learned this, and while it might sound silly, it was very fun making my feed more positive. I took re control of several of my social networks during the last year and it was very freeing.

10 I lost 8 pounds riding my bike to school. At the beginning of the year biking that three-quarters of a mile to my school, it felt like such a long trek. In a couple months, my breathing was better, my endurance stronger, my legs were more powerful. Forced exercise is the best.

11 JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure. This anime is one of the most enjoyable, crazy, hysterical, intense stories I’ve ever had the pleasure of watching and I’m so glad I caught up with the series this past year. Time worth spent lemme tell ya. Also now I have a poster of Joseph Jostar on my wall, handsome devil. XD

12 My self-confidence grew, slowly but surely. I learned I could take public transportation regularly and be ok. I learned I could still fly across the country on my own and be ok. I learned I’m loved exactly as I am and that I should love myself the way I am too. I learned I have incredible strengths worth growing. I learned that hardships are often times neverending but I can survive them bit by bit.

13 Communication is hard but worthwhile. I poured everything I had into communicating consciously and as clearly as I could with my best friend to make our meeting in May a success. The result was a trip I’ll never forget and all that communicating was completely worth it!

14 I won ten dollars from a lottery ticket. That was really fun. XD

15 I need music like I need air. I really came to terms with how influential, necessary, and engaging music is for me. I love exploring music, using it to process my states of emotion, and writing about it. Often times, music is the way I survive: The long waits for the bus or the times when my brain gets so loud that I have pump it through my ears for hours on end outside late into the night. It’s how I bike to school and walk the dogs and wash the dishes. It feels good acknowledging its importance and my own confidence in my taste.

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Tomorrow I’m going to the Rainforest Cafe for my birthday lunch and mall shopping, and then hopefully I’ll get to skype with my best friend for the afternoon. Right now, I’m just back from seeing Finding Dory as well! Hopefully, it’ll be a chill, happy birthday! ❤

~Jamie

 

My Hiatus is Over! || My Summer


Well, my hiatus for this blog ran a lot longer than I originally expected, but it was a much-needed personal break to let my mind and emotions be by themselves for awhile.

The thing about running a personal blog is that it’s…well…personal. It can get hard to share things or write about even silly things when you’re confused and befuddled about big issues in your life. So the break from this blog has been good to just allow my mind to simmer with itself.  I haven’t come to any conclusions, but I’m okay with not being completely okay. That in and of itself is freeing.

I plan to catch you all up on the different things I’ve struggled with in the near future, as those are heavy topics for their own posts. But today I’ll just catch you up on my summer as best I can! 😀

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In many ways it was a very quiet summer. It others, it was loud and confusing and emotional.

My parent’s divorce was finalized at the end of April (a big HIP HIP HOORAY goes right here!) and my entire family’s routine changed as my brother began to switch between my home and my dad’s home every other week. I’m still adjusting here in September: My weeks seem to begin on Fridays and then have no ending. It’s super weird. XD It works though; I miss my little bro when he’s not here, but I also enjoy that quiet off-week too because… eight year old boys……..just wow.

I worked on my sci-fi book throughout June, but as my head got louder and louder with doubts and theological questions and frustration, I paused the writing. I’d hope to pick it back up in August, but computer issues and now college still keeps me from continuing with it for the time being. The only other story I worked on over the summer was personal story for myself, an nontraditional romance that is incredibly fun write. But that was all the fiction I managed to write over the summer. 😦

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I turned 21 at the end of July! It was a very nice birthday; with early morning happy birthday emojis from my best friend, to the exciting Ant-Man which Mom agreed to watch with me, to my favorite sub-sandwiches for dinner. The amount of birthday wishes and phone calls and cards made me feel very loved and special! There was a damper on the day’s end (I.E. my dad suddenly remarrying on my birthday before bringing my brother home–a topic for another post) but thankfully the shock of it didn’t really kick in till the next day.

Overall, I had a wonderful 21st birthday! Thank you again for all your sweet comments!

Small things can keep you busy like you wouldn’t believe. One day the internet went out. We didn’t figure out until the next day that it wasn’t a neighborhood thing but our own problem. *headdesk* Stupid little things like that seemed to happen all summer. XD

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Between the end of July and through almost the entirety of August, I had computer struggles. Oh how those just thrill me to pieces. XD This problem interfered with the blogging I was doing, and I breathed in and out of calm control and fits of frustration. As of now, the issue has seemed to resolved it’s self, which is the weirdest thing EVER, but I’m not complaining! I can upload images to WordPress again!

The pro that came out of that whole experience, though, was that I learned a behemoth-like amount of information about my computer this summer and how I can maintain it from my good ol’ friend James The Reviewer. Thank you again for all your help last month, James, you were the best! (Seriously, guys, he taught me so much computer stuff, and took a lot time to walk me through possible solutions for the issue, even though he didn’t have too. I’m such a baby when it comes to my computer, so it was nice to have support from someone steadier than myself. XD)

Friends are literally the best thing ever.

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Happier moments of the summer included watching and talking and writing about anime. So many adventures; so many wonderful characters who are now very dear to my heart (Takeo and Yamato! Kiyoshi-dono! Renge! NICOLAS BROWN, MARRY ME!) I kept my anime blog alive despite the computer issues–I don’t know how!!!–and had lots of fun! I’ve established some wonderful friendships this summer and almost everyone that I’ve met in the anime blogging community has been very kind and enthusiastic!

It’s also incredible to be exposed to a second language every single day through stories. The Japanese language is so beautiful to listen to and I feel a little more familiar with it as each week goes by! It’s my new favorite thing!

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COLLEGE. As August began to close, I first pondered, then agreed to start college before fully wrapping up my GED studies. I’m taking one class, a career exploration class for creative minds at my local community college and I’m already glad I agreed to start. While I now have homework to bring home, I really like the class’s content so far. I think I will learn a lot about myself this semester and shall be able to zone in a specific career or degree that I would personally be driven to achieve.

Since it’s also a class about understanding yourself, I hope that it will help me work through a lot of junk I still have from the past nine years of unbalanced homeschooling and over-the-top patriarchal churches and emotional exhaustion.  I spent most of my teens years having my individualism smothered in the patriarchal movement, which I’m still recovering from.

God didn’t make me as a incomplete soul or personality without a man and I should not have buried myself for others for years and years!

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Hopefully I’ll really discover how I think and function as an individual during this semester, so I can continue becoming my own person. I mean, I’ve done a lot of this in other areas of my life already (I’m learning to say no for myself, I’m learning healthy boundaries, and I am learning to enjoy what I enjoy without feeling weird about it) but I still need help understanding my core. Personal exploration will be very healthy for me!

It has been a confusing, crazy, quiet, enjoyable, angry, emotional summer. I love anime; I really love anime. I’m happy that I got to enjoy the lightning storms in the evening while I listened to music. I’m mad at my dad because, wow, thanks for dragging us through the mud for years insisting a divorce would ruin our already ruined family and then remarrying before the papers are barely cold on my birthday; like I didn’t have enough trust issues with men! And I’m happy that my mom insisted I think about starting college.

I’m hopeful I’ll find my path by the end of the year.

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I am still a lot of emotions from this summer and I haven’t worked through everything; but that’s okay. I’m okay with knowing that I’m both angry and happy and miserable and hopeful all at the same time. I THINK THAT IS LIFE?!?

However, I’ve had my fill of quiet time with just myself. I ready to come home, to this blog and to all of you! Thanks for waiting for me, guys. I love you all! I can’t wait to continue blogging here!

What did you do or feel this summer?

~Jamie

The Day Before The Birthday


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Tomorrow, on Friday, the 24th, I’m turning 21! This is probably the biggest birthday date of my life yet and will be until probably my 40th, because that’s when one might have a mid-life crisis. XD I don’t have much planned for tomorrow–I plan to see Ant-Man, open cards and gifts in the evening when my brother is home, watch my favorite anime finale, and eat my favorite dessert.

I didn’t make many big plans: Usually the family would plan out our birthday’s into the whole day. This is probably my most unplanned birthday ever. I kind of did that on purpose though–I wanted the day to just happen so I could treasure the little moments that will crop up throughout the day.

Today will be the last day where I’m 20. Today is Thursday, and at this point in my life, Thursday is my lazy “Saturday” day; I don’t really like to do things today because it’s my day to unwind, think, enjoy some media, You-Tube, music, Skype messaging, room straightening, ect, ect, ect, ect. It’s just my quiet day. I should probably do something major for my last day as a not-official-adult–but I already dyed my hair for new year’s and I’m not ready for a tattoo or a big road trip yet. XD So I’m here writing this instead.

I’m glad I blog: I had fun reading my thoughts of last year’s birthday. I have not changed much: I still have all the same celebrity crushes, favorite movies, pet peeves… A goal I had for this year was to try more anime and that was a tremendous success! (High fives younger self for being more diverse and open-minded.) I forgot I’ve gotten a zombie film for my last few birthdays…if I don’t get something zombie this year I will buy it for myself–or rewatch Shaun of the Dead.

I’m keeping this short. I’m looking forward to tomorrow; I hope Ant-Man is good, and I’m excited to have my little brother home. ❤ I hope 21 has a good start. Talk to you guys later!

~Jamie

Happy Birthday, Sherlock Holmes


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Today I’m joining Hamlette’s blog party for Sherlock Holmes’s birthday. The party is taking place at her blog Edge of the Precipice! I’ve been a fan of Sherlock Holmes for almost as long as I can remember, so there was no way I was not doing this!

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The Good Old Index of Questions

1.  When and how did you first encounter Sherlock Holmes?

It was one of the Great Illustrated Classics through which I first discovered Holmes. It had three stories: The Red-Headed League, The Speckled Band, and The Copper Beaches. I read The Adventures and Memoirs soon later and then fell madly in love with Basil Rathbone’s Sherlock Holmes not too long after that. And that’s only the beginning!

2.  Please share a fact or two about yourself related to Holmes.  (You’ve read the whole canon, you’ve been to Baker Street, you’re an official BSI member, etc.)

I acknowledge Sherlock Holmes as my number one hero/favorite fictional character of all time out of any genre or medium of fiction ever. Ever. That’s how much I love this character and his adventures. I’m incredibly protective of the character; I’m very picky over what I like or don’t like when it comes to film/TV adaptions of his stories and I don’t regret being that way in the least. XD

On a different note; during 2012, my best friend and I read the original stories every week; on Sunday we’d discuss them together. We read all four novels and nearly every single short story within a year! My friend even gave my a humongous, gorgeous Sherlock Holmes book that contained nearly every story! I still count that year as one of the best reading experiences of my life!

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3.  What are three of your favorite Holmes adventures?

A story that stuck with me to this day was The Man with the Twisted LipThe Sign of Four was amazing and had me laughing so hard (although I loved all four novels pretty equally, there’s not one I didn’t enjoy less.) The Blue Carbuncle had one of my favorite moments of Holmes cleverly getting information out of someone; that one vividly stuck to me as well.

4.  What draws you to the Sherlock Holmes stories?

Everything; the characters, the narrative, the adventures and mysteries. Especially the mysteries, I’m a who-dun-it mystery addict if ever there was one. There’s too much to explain as to why I love these stories so much, so I’ll just leave it as this: Sir Doyle’s characters captured my attention from the beginning and hasn’t let go in over ten years. ❤

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I’ve had this on my sidebar for 2 years and I’m keeping it there!

5.  If you were going to give Sherlock Holmes a birthday present, what would it be?

A brand new revolver for him to take out on his adventures, for self-protection!

6.  If you could climb into a Holmes story and replace any one character for a day, who would you like to be?

Dr. Watson. I already relate to Dr. Watson in so many ways, but I would love to actually be him for a day. I’d chase after Holmes scratching my head till the mystery is solved, and then write about it later from baffled amazement. ❤

7.  Please share some of your favorite Holmes-related quotes!

Here are two:

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This is the story of my life. I observed nothing as a child. XD
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This is a classic quote but nevertheless it is still one of my favorites.

This was lots of fun, thanks for hosting this blog party, Hamlette!

~Jamie

Liebster 2.0 (a sorta birthday edition!)


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(Note: I’ve redone my blog theme! I needed a change even though I loved the old old. I do like the new header feature: I was able to find many free, fabulously high quality pictures to use. Refresh or jump through my pages to see the different pictures I found!)

No matter how many times this blog award comes around (and it seems to come around a lot!) I always flip out when I see that I’ve been tagged by someone and that they thought of me! That feels so good! And today I thought I would use the latest tag to share some of the awesome stuff that happened over the past few days around my 20th birthday!

A big thank you, first, to Miranda for tagging me! And–just a quick plug! I don’t follow fashion or photography blogs; it’s just not my main interest–well, okay, except for just ONE blog and that is Little Gold Pocket Watch. I discovered this blog when it was just starting out and I absolutely loved Miranda’s photos and outfits. She has the brightest smile and the sweetest online voice! She recently came back from a blogging hiatus which made me really happy. Thanks for tagging me, Miranda!

My Eleven Birthday Facts:

1. I helped buy myself a brand new laptop for my birthday; a shiny touchscreen Windows 8 laptop! I’m still figuring out the short cuts, but it’s so beautiful, thin, and shiny! I know I will be using it to the max! It actually got me to really notice Kindle, so I’ll be reading a few books on there as well now (including my friend Rebekah’s latest released book Journeys of Four! I’m so excited to read the published version!)

2. Kayla and I saw “Lucy” together on Friday as an extension of my birthday; I ate Chiclets (sorry, fellow movie goers, that the candy rattled so loudly) and we soaked in Scarlet Johanson’s awesomeness. (The movie itself was enjoyable but I wouldn’t go out of your way to see it at theaters.)

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3. I had my favorite foods on my birthday; hamburgers with chips and ambrosia salad (Aunt Linda, it was your recipe and it was so good!) and Chinese! Fool’s Toffee and pink lemonade also made guest appearances. 😛 Oh, and doughnuts for breakfast.

4. I watched four movies on my birthday–I multi-tasked through them, of course. I played Porco Rosso for Nathan while I updated my new computer system and installed an anti-virus–Nathan enjoyed it a lot, which made me happy. Then Kayla and I watched Shaun of the Dead, Murder by Death, and Clue all that evening. It was awesome.

5. My sister was very generous this year with birthday presents; gifting me with The Deathly Hallows Parts 1 and 2, The Cornetto Trilogy, Murder by Death, The Croods, Harry Potter posters, Captain America The Winter Soldier poster, Hot Topic gift card, and some beauty products! I was floored!  I ❤ Kayla.

6. This is the second year in a row where I’ve received a zombie film for my birthday. I would like to keep this tradition up if possible.

7. After my birthday, Kayla chauffeured me around to a few stores I had gift cards too; I made out like a bandit at Target with a magnetic white board with accessories to plot stories on and keep day to day notes in sight, to brand new headphones, Catching Fire, Despicable Me 2, school supplies and Lindsey Stirling’s latest album Shatter Me! Her music is fantastic!

8. On my birthday morning, I planned to sleep in but ended up waking up at about 6:30 and was unable to fall back asleep. 😯

9. I got one dollar shipping on Hot Topic’s website and I was so thrilled! Ordered myself two Adventure Time tops for my new favorite Cartoon Network fandom and a couple other things too!

10. Besides the four movies, I and the family also watched Duck Dynasty during dinner. SO MUCH TV.

11. I had a fantastic birthday, not a bad thing happened and everything was very enjoyable. 🙂

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Miranda asked some great questions, several that I’ve never had to answer before here on my blog so I’m excited to answer them now!

1) What is your personal style like? I’m now usually in a jeans and t-shirt style but I also like to wear some nicer tops and capri pants. Overall, I’m very relaxed and wear comfortable clothes with Minions or fandom related things on them. X) So, I suppose I’m a pretty casual dresser overall.

2) What got you interested in blogging? Writing on my mom’s blog back in 2010 got me interested in starting my own personal blog–along with reading other girls blogs during that same year. I’ve always liked to write so it definitely appealed to my strengths!

3) Any pet peeves? Several–besides the ones listed in this post–include people leaving shopping carts just outside the cart holder instead of taking the extra two steps to put it out of the way and going to a store (and now at the theater!) where there are lots places to be checking out (or in!) people but the store is only utilizing one or two, making everyone wait longer then they need. SERIOUSLY WALMART. YOU HAVE ABOUT 35 CHECK OUT SPACES AND YOU CAN’T AFFORD TO HAVE MORE THAN FIVE OF THEM OPEN AT A TIME? I DON’T HAVE TIME TO STAND BEHIND SOME FINICKY PERSON WITH THEIR COUPONS AND THREE OVERLOADED CARTS. Well, thank goodness for self checkout.

4) Celebrity crush? So, the very, very, very first name to pop into my head when I read this question was Benedict Cumberbatch. Heehee. Others would include Tom Hiddleston, Nicholas Hoult, Chris Evans, Simon Pegg and Sylvester Stallone.

5) If you could go back in time, which era would you choose? Gaslamp Victorian England. The classic Sherlock Holmes time period! And then maybe visit the 20’s, 40’s, and 50’s afterwards out of pure curiosity…

6) Morning hair and makeup routine? With my hair on the shorter side now, I usually will throw on a band to keep it out of my eyes. I actually don’t have a makeup routine as I rarely wear any, however I’m practicing with eyeliner. I suppose the closest thing I have to a makeup routine is applying some EOS lip balm on my lips before moving on with my day to keep them moist.

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7) Favorite movie? CLUE. There are few movies that I can rewatch over and over and over again and not get bored of; Clue is one of them. Much more recent favorites also include The Cornetto Trilogy and Studio Ghibli’s My Neighbor Totoro, Ponyo, and The Secret World of Arrietty; the former are a fantastic comedy/satirical set of British films and the latter some of the best animated films I’ve ever seen.

8) Where have you not traveled that you would like to visit and why? London, England. Hands down number one place I’d love to visit!

9) Morning person or night owl? Although I am trying to get my morning scheduled arranged so I’m getting up earlier, I am definitely more a night owl! I love staying up late!

10) What’s something you’re passionate about besides blogging? I really love animals. I’m not all high on animal rights or being a vegetarian or anything, I simply, really enjoy the company and energy I receive from just about any animal. I would love to work with animals more often.

11) What is one of your life goals, big or small? A big term goal, which I actually just accomplished, was to save money for six months to keep my bank account from emptying out and I was able to do it!! It feels really good to save money! A small term goal is try watching more anime-there are several shows on Netflix that my anime sensei has informed me are well worth the watch and he’s yet to steer me to a bad piece of media. 😉

Tagging, tagging, I FEEL LAZY BUT TAGGING CAN BE SO HARD. 😛 The first eleven people to comment on this post can answer these 7 questions on their own blogs or in the comments if they so wish.

Do you sleep with your bedroom door open or shut?

Have you ever won a contest of any kind? If you have, what was it?

If you could build something out of Legos right now without all typical obstacles, what you would build?

What’s your favorite type/flavor of gum?

If you choose between visiting the moon and mars, which would go to?

What is the scariest movie scene you remember seeing when you were little?

What’s your favorite theme song?

~Jamie