Changing Seasons

compassI’m incredibly distracted right now; the seasons are changing, goodbyes have been said to special people, future hellos are approaching out of nowhere, I have a school project I’m slowly working my way towards beginning XD, and…just a lot of things are shifting. Quickly, anxiously, happily…it’s all very distracting. XD

My baby sister left this week for Army Basic Training and it was one of the worst goodbyes I ever had to say. The last time I cried that hard was four years ago when my family first crumbled apart, and the time before that was probably never. I’m incredibly proud of my sister and I know military life will really suit her, but the letting go was brutal. I survived, though. 😥 I can’t wait to see her again in a few months! ❤

I’m not ready for it to be November already. The year seemed to have slipped by so fast. Its weird to look back and realize so many of my priorities changed over the year from my original 2015 bucket list. I’m not ready for it to be Christmas again. I’m not ready for 2016. And meanwhile, the rest of the country is up in arms over the Starbucks coffee cup designs. Just, why.

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My college class on career exploration continues to be wonderful and I’ve been attempting to explore the effectiveness of some of the things I’ve learned about myself, especially the Seven Intelligence test. I tested highly in Musical Intelligence, so I’ve been listening to my music outside at night; to really feel the melodies, emotions, pitches, and beats, to see what my mind might find on the journey. I pace a lot and let myself move with the lyrics and swells. There’s something about being in the darkness in the cold with my music that really helps my mind feel more secure and open to delve deep inside myself. It’s been intriguing…plus, it gives me time to tease the cat with his laser toy. I love that part too. XD

A lot of other exciting things are going on, but those will have to wait for another day when they’re more set in stone. I will mention that I’m REALLY looking forward to the last Hunger Games film next week! All my spoiler-avoiding for this ending is going to pay off!

I hope you all are doing well; anyone else a little depressed the year is coming to an end?!



12 thoughts on “Changing Seasons

  1. Aww, I’m so sorry you’ve had a lot of hard goodbyes. I said goodbye to my older sister last year when she stayed a few states away for six months, but I can’t imagine saying goodbye to a sister (or brother!) for basic training. HUGS! I’ll be praying for you!

    I’m a little scared that the year is going to end too fast, and I know that the next few weeks will be really intense for me personally (just because we have so much going on – concerts, Thanksgiving, MOCKINGJAY2, Christmas concerts, my birthday…), but I’m excited! I have a goal to finish rewriting my novel before the year ends, so that’s kind of nerve-wracking since I’m only halfway through, but I think I can do it. We’ll see.

    1. Thank you very much for the hugs and prayers!! It was quite painful, more so after she left than when actually saying goodbye. For a long moment it felt like a whole was punched in my heart. 😦
      Wow, you sound really busy, lol! I wish you the best of luck on your rewriting, I’m sure you’ll do great! I hope your holidays are as peaceful as possible! XD

      1. Aww, that’s so sad. Goodbyes are so hard! 😦

        Haha, yeah, this time of year is always crazy for me and my family. Thanks! 🙂 Same to you! 😀

  2. So happy you are moving out of your comfort zone and into the light of new possibilities. You are such a special young lady. I could see that many years ago when I spent time with your family and we star gazed many nights. Keep opening up to the possibilities of life.
    I left tor the Army just after my 18th birthday. Kayla will be well taken care of and also has a whole new world open to her. Love and prayers always, Mary

    1. Thank you very much for the encouragement! I almost forgot we star gazed, wow! That’s such a fun memory!
      Wow you were little younger than Kayla when you joined. I do hope she finds her path there, and a second family for her too. 🙂


  3. Aw. That must be tough about your sister. I had a friend go away to basic last year and that was tough. 😦 But I’m so excited for Mockingjay Part 2 as well! I’m going down to a friend’s house two hours away because her theater is the best and has a prizes and such! I’m doing my Katniss cosplay for it. So excited! 😀

    1. yeah, the goodbyes are hard, aren’t they. 😦 But that sound so fun for Mockingjay!!! Will you get some pictures of your cosplay while you’re there?

      1. They are! It’s kinda goodbye for the Hunger Games series too since it’s the last one. 😦 I’m planning to. ^ ^ I’ll post them on my monthly summary post. ^ ^

      2. Yay! I can’t wait to see them! From the pictures I’ve seen of you I think you’d make a nice Katniss! 😀

  4. I can’t wait for the last Hunger Games either!!! So excited 😀 But I’m so sorry you had to say goodbye to your little sister — as an older sister myself, I think that would tear my heart out — but I wish you both all the best! And yes, it feels a little weird having 2015 winding down already, but I’m looking forward to a wonderful 2016! 😀

    1. I have high hopes for that movie!! Thank you, overall I’m very excited for her and I can’t wait to start getting letters from her. 😀

  5. I know how hard it is to say goodbye to a sibling — I’m still having a hard time not being near my brother after I went to college. I wish your sister all the best with her army training and I hope you two can see each other soon!

    Glad to hear that your college class is going well! I wish you happiness and success in finishing out the year! 🙂

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