Seven Things About Myself


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I know; I just did an award post a few days ago, but I have to do these as they come or I tend to forget! Anyway, these are great post-makers. πŸ™‚ Moving on, I want to say a big, big thank you to Moonstonemaiden for awarding me with this, I feel very honored to be called ‘very inspiring’, that means the world to me!

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Display the award logo on your blog.
Link back to the person who nominated you.
State 7 things about yourself.
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Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements

This post turned out excessively long, but it felt really good to be able to put most of these things into a paragraph and have it just out and on the table to deal with. Posts like these are the reasons why I like blogging, because this is where I am free to talk about what I’m struggling with.

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Seven things about myself:

I still can’t drive. My mom is pressuring me to start learning as soon as the stress goes down low enough to where I can study better. It will be much more useful if I do learn to drive; I’ll be able to do grocery shopping or take trips to the library on my own if I get my license. I just don’t have that great burning to learn right now… I suppose that’s the problem. In some ways, I’m a homebody. Sure, I love going out to friends’ houses or attending parties or just going to Costco with my mom, but I don’t have the wanderlust where my feet want to travel the world. Maybe Europe someday with my special someone, but outside of a few trip idea that I am keeping to myself and Mom, I don’t really want to climb in a car and drive anywhere. At least… not now. πŸ™‚

I want to be more comfortable in my skin. I’m tired of looking in the mirror and frowning at myself. I’m tired of not feeling pretty. So, something I just started this week was getting my makeup and girly stuff off my shelf and dust the top off and use some of it! I’ve painted my nails with my favorite light lavender polish, I’ve started putting on some sweet smelling lotion and a tiny bit of my pink lipstick. I know that true beauty comes from being truly happy, but honestly, I’ve not been very happy recently with all the extreme levels of stress in my home. It’s shown with myself-respect in how I’ve let myself go a little. I’m dressing more sloppily, I’ve not put makeup on for weeks, not even for church. So I decided this week that from now on in this new year, I will be taking the time to pretty myself up, to dress a bit better, to get back to painting my nails regularly. I think this will help my self confidence more. I can look in the mirror and smile and say, “I not ugly!” And I’ll see self-respect smiling back. And I will feel better in my skin.

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I love accomplishing new piano songs on my own. I haven’t had a lesson since I was twelve and what I learned in that last lesson was really easy stuff compared to the stuff I’m trying to play now. I like to play haunting melodies and the themes from my favorite tv shows and movies. I’m trying to conquer the Avengers theme right now and it’s a little difficult. I can hardly read the bass notes or treble notes, much less the notes that fly off the scale. I sometimes have to pencil in the notes names onto the paper so I remember what they are; sometimes I can’t play songs because they’re so advanced for the skills that I have. But at the same time, each new song I’ve managed to nail and memorize, I get such a great sense on accomplishment from it. Because I memorized that six page song, I taught myself how to do that finger play, I learned how to read those hard notes. All by myself. When my fingers can play the song all by themselves while I shut my eyes and I still nail the song: that’s the best.

Speaking of which, I’m trying to decide which of these two songs I want to learn next; I’m mean, I’ll eventually learn both, but I don’t know which one to get first because I like them both pretty equally. I’d love to hear which you guys like better and you could help me decide which to learn first! This one is called Chimes and this one is called Field of Daisies, both by Brian Crain. The other two songs that I’ve learned by this amazing composer is Rain and Wind; you can listen to these two songs and pretend I’m playing them because, yeah, I nailed those two pretty good, if I do say so myself.

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Sherlock Holmes was pretty much my first official crush. Like, I had it bad for a long time when I was fourteen. We were, like, married and everything. But he came and he went, new things came along, I slowly forgot about him until last year: BOOM. He came leaping back out of my closet in book form, alive, covered in dust and shouting, “Remember me? I’m back in your face! Try to get rid of me now!” So, last time it was Basil Rathbone’s version that made me giggle, this round it’s Benedict Cumberbatch’s version . . . . . . . . . . between you and me, I plan on having twin boys; I will name them Basil and Benedict and they’ll grow up wearing deerstalker caps. Because, come on, it’d be a bit much to name your child Sherlock Holmes, right?

I have a hard time striking a balance between ‘reserved and quiet friend’ and ‘overly-clingy friend’. Because I’ve never had many friendships, I really value the ones that I do have, but I have this big fear that I may come across as really clingy and weird if I stick too close or talk too much with those friends and annoying them to death. I hate the idea of having people look at me and thinking, “Great, here she comes, it’s going to be ages before I can get her to be quiet again/get her to stop trailing me“.Β  To come off like that to the few friends I do have horrifies me, so I do the next worse possible thing and I stay too reserved. I just don’t know how to strike the perfect middle on this, especially because my first impulse is to be on the more clingy side of things. I’m a socially-oriented person, I like to both talk, and to just sit quietly in the middle of a group of friends and listen to them all talk. I need to be around people. But I’m so awkward when it comes to properly engaging with certain friends. This is something I’m going to work on this year… unless I happen to loose all those friends by moving to a new church again. This seems like a looming possibility that might happen in the near future and I’m stone cold terrified of having to start all over again but… let’s just not continue down this train of thought just yet, okay?

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I’m still going through the self-discovery process. Because during most of my teen years it was overly taught that one had to find their identification as a member in a family, my dad didn’t really allow me to try to think that I was and am, in fact, an individual person with my own personality, my own needs, my own likes and struggles. And while, yes, it is true, we are all part of a family and we should try to work together as a family, I wish the other half of the coin hadn’t been washed out of the picture then. I’m now trying to get that other half back. How can I expect other people to understand and know me when I don’t understand or know myself?

I’m thinking about writing a time traveling story. I don’t have much of a plot or character ideas or anything but I’ve had the end climax in my head for many years, so, I might actually try to write it out one of these days. It’s quite a scary idea and it’s only in the thinking process because I have so many other stories that I want to write first, but I think it would be fun to attempt a story like this. πŸ™‚

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I’m going to nominate just a few people here who have been ‘very inspiring’ to me. πŸ™‚

Grace: Grace is very inspiring in that she has learned to be comfortable as herself. She’s had many encouraging words for me over the past two years and she’s inspired me to embrace my inner fangirl without feeling weird about it. She also writes some great inspirational posts. πŸ™‚

James: James is very inspiring when it comes to consistently commenting. He’s always has a kind word no matter where he comments and he does a great job giving back great feedback. He’s been inspiring to start commenting more, because comments really is one of the best things with blogging.

Alexandra: Alexandra is very inspiring in that she’s an accomplished self-published author! I’m inspired whenever I see her accomplishments to try to reach those accomplishments myself one day with my own writing; she also has given me so much encouragement to keep trying with my writing!

You three have been very inspiring to me in your own ways, so you really deserve this award from me to you! Thanks so much for being in my life!

And that wraps up this much-to-long post; thanks for reading, guys!

~Jamie

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21 thoughts on “Seven Things About Myself

  1. Don’t feel bad, I hate driving, and tried to postpone actually having to drive for years. I mean, I’ve known how to drive since I was 15 or 16 but I didn’t actually get my license until I was 19, lol. It’s just one of those things in life that I’m not drawn to and if I could afford a personal chauffeur, I’d never drive again!

    And I’ve always had the same problem with the whole friends thing, like I like having a few close friends that I hang out with all the time as opposed to lots of half-friends that I’m not close to. But I do find that sometimes I have to walk that fine line between being clingy and being myself. πŸ˜€

    1. Haha, a chauffeur! Yes! Me wishes I could have that too! πŸ˜€

      I’m glad I’m not the only who struggles with this!

      Thanks again for the award!!!

      ~Jamie

  2. Ok… I love these kinds of posts. And if you don’t mind long comments… here I go!

    1. I am not driving either. No interest, no need. : ) It is a skill I should probably have… the library would be a nice place to visit…. but…not yet for me. : D

    2. I can understand that!
    Wearing a bright color and having my hair done in a semi- decent way helps me too!

    3. That is an incredible talent to have, to be able to play music like that. I enjoy listening to other people’s music.

    4. I have some names from great people filed away for the future as well…
    Merry and Pippin aren’t acceptable for people, I fear. Neither is Frodo. Not Legolas. But I admire them all. : D

    5. I have a hard time striking a balance between β€˜reserved and quiet friend’ and β€˜overly-clingy friend’.
    I needed to quote this because this is me. I either seem reserved and very quiet or I seem way too cheery and excited, using thirty exclamation points. I did once. !!!!!!!!!

    6. This is so true. So true.

    7. If you write it… I would probably want to read it. : D
    I am a big fan of the stories that stay in our hearts and heads for years before we write them.

    Blessings~ Faith

  3. *glances at the above comment, then breathes a sigh of relief* Oh good. I’m not the only person who doesn’t know how to drive yet, LOL!!! Nearly 21 and still only have a learner’s permit πŸ˜› However, I do have more of a motivation and desire to get my license this year. Now if I can just get some lessons in BEFORE I’m in over my head with seven baby goats, I’ll be doin’ good πŸ˜‰

    Good for you about #2! Keep it up! To paraphrase something my mom has always told us, “Don’t obsess over your appearance, but make the effort to look nice–it says something to the world about yourself!” πŸ˜€

    1. Ahhh, for some reason that made me feel better! Lol

      That’s a great rule for makeup and dressing up in general!! You mom has a lot of good sayings! πŸ˜›

      ~Jamie

  4. Thank you so much! That means a lot to be inspiring! I would definitely give you the award if you didn’t already give it to me. πŸ˜€ I will try and get its posted with the other award.
    I do not have a wanderlust either, I just drive out of essentially because I have to go collage soon. I do like driving fast on the highway though, it’s exhilarating sometimes. But it is more of a guy thing. πŸ™‚
    Cool, The Avengers theme is fantastic! I enjoy all of the different covers of it on YouTube. I am actually listening to one right now! πŸ˜€
    Basil and Benedict, good names. πŸ™‚
    I don’t talk much, except to my brother, well unless on the off chance someone actually knows what the heck I am talking about, and that has never happened. I just avoid people, which is kind of unrealistic, but it is surprising effective. πŸ˜›
    A time traveling story sounds great! The hardest part of any time-traveling fiction is the time-traveling logic, and how everything works. Is history destined to happen regardless of you do? Or is it “a big ball of Wibbly Wobbly Timey Wimey…Stuff”

    -James

    1. ROFL at The Doctor!! I’m going to like Tennant! πŸ˜›

      Thanks for the long comment and even the video! I always look forward to reading your comments! πŸ˜€

      That is one thing I think I would like to do when I do learn to drive; drive fast on the freeway with my music pounding. That’s on my bucket list to do one day.

      Yes, I’m not sure of anything with the time traveling story but I’m kicking the idea around, I think it would be fun to attempt to write. πŸ™‚

      ~Jamie

  5. Well, I can’t say that I didn’t want to drive–in fact, I just passed my driver’s test on Tuesday. Anything car related runs in my family, though, so I came by it naturally! haha

    I know exactly what you mean when you say about being a clinging friend. I love my friends a lot (I’m a people person) and I love to be with them. But I worry about being to “loving”–I don’t want my friends to get annoyed with me. So, you’re not alone in that worry.

    Oo, a new story! It sounds exciting!

    I really enjoyed this post, Jamie!!

    oh, and two twins named Basil and Benedict?? I think it sounds like a good plan πŸ˜€

    1. Congratulations on passing the test!!! That’s exciting!!

      I’m so glad–not that you have the problem but that I’m not alone! Lol. *hugs*

      Haha, it’s a great plan. I hope the guy I end up marrying is up for it! I suppose I would first need to have twins, but anyway! LOL

      ~Jamie

  6. Hey sorry to bother you but my site is telling me that I’m down by one follower and I checked and it looks like it might be you. For some reason my page has been doing this lately, I don’t know what’s up with it, but just in case you didn’t know, I wanted to let you know. But if you did un-follow me for some specific reason, I’m truly sorry about whatever caused it πŸ˜€

    1. Hi! No, you’re not bothering me at all. I didn’t unfollow you, I actually can’t remember if I ever did hit your follow button to begin with or not. I’m sorry about that, but I didn’t intentionaly unfollow you! Hope this helps! πŸ™‚

      ~Jamie

      1. Oh good! I wasn’t exactly sure but my page has been acting weird lately and everytime I get a new follower, it says I’ve lost an old one or something. Grr, lol. It’s driving me crazy. πŸ˜€

      2. I hate it when stuff like that happens! I’ve been struggling with Firefox the past few days; I updated it and now it’s crashing on me whenever I have two tabs open! Very annoying! πŸ™‚

        ~Jamie

      3. Oh ick, I can’t imagine not being able to have multiple tabs open! I’ve usually got three or four open all the time: wordpress, facebook, youtube, tabs just make life easier! πŸ˜€

  7. Basil and Benedict…cute idea! πŸ˜€ My brother and I were talking about the different last names my future spouse might have and what I could name some of my kids. Can’t you just see it though?
    Enrichment class teacher/coach/ whatever (I’m planning to homeschool my kids): “What’s your full name?”
    My son: “Francis Sherlock Holmes.”
    Teacher/coach: “?!”
    My son: “My mom’s an obsessed fangirl.”
    Okay, so probably not, but it was alot of fun to talk and laugh about. πŸ˜› We came up with several others, like Phillip/Philomena Coulson; Clint Barton; Samuel Gamgee…you get the picture. It was alot of fun. XD
    Driving! O.o It scares me. Alot. Not as much as it did, but still…*shudders* I don’t like it, but I have to do it.

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