Sometimes life sucks. And then sometimes it’s really awesome. The saying “life is what you make it” is often very true but then in other ways I can’t control everything that happens to me. Really bad things happen, and they drag out for over a few years with months where things are just really emotional and stressful and then it slows down you’re able to relax for a moment.
2011 was full of angst, verbal abuse, loosing old friends, making new friends, tears, and Star Wars but pretty much disaster. 2012 the roller coaster slowed down a bit; full of reading, writing, finishing school, struggling to mend as a family, the Avengers and hopes. Now we are nearly through the first month of 2013 and I see the roller coaster speeding up with lots of big, scary drops ahead of me, with a lot more tears, a lot more emotional pain, a huge looming fear of loosing the new friends I’ve only just made and a lot more scarring that will be left on top of old wounds that still haven’t healed completely. It’s really scary.
But at the same time, I really want to try to remain the happy me. Life isn’t always what you make it but it will always be miserable if you let it squash you. Today I took another step in keeping me head above the water, in trying to set an example of strength and cheerfulness to my siblings by saying that, yes, life is hard now but we can still have fun, we have to move on and not sit in a tub of tears unable to smile.
Today, I learned how to moonwalk. Yes, that funny walk that looks like your walking normal but you’re going backwards–this is the tutorial I watched to learn if you are interested, it’s actually very easy to understand. Why is learning to moonwalk important to me? Because it’s something new, something fun, something that you only see the ‘cool people’ able to do. It’s a distraction and it makes me smile. Because in some small ways, life is what you make it.
It’s only something small but it helps. What are the small things you do to make your day better?
P.S. thank you so much for your prayers and many comments on my last post, everyone, they were very encouraging to both me and Kayla and also my Mom! We are no where out of the darkness yet so please keep up the prayers! They are so appreciated, it makes me feel better to know my friends across the country are there for me!